It's a COMEBACK!

OK, thanks to my dear special blogfriend Mogli and some others - I´ve decided to blog sometimes(!) But only when I feel like it and a shorter time. I can’t give up so much time any longer as before when I was mass producing the contributions... I just haven’t got time for that now when school have started again. I got a rich social/fun life besides. I take this blogging as a diary or place that can absorbing my deeply thoughts and daily issues. But as you´ve seen - I´m very focused on giving you something magnificent to learn too(!!)

Since I´ve made my decision (yesterday) about which courses I want to study - I feel like a stone have fell off my shoulders. Suddenly I feel more happy in my entire body & soul! I´m not sick, I´ve started to go to the gym again, I got lovely friends and a nice family... I´m just proud to say that I now feel like I got control over my life again and have a plan for the next two years or so... I´ve realise that I should do what I´m better at than be all stressed up and sad through study the wrong courses for me just to get a wider qualification to some educations. I´ll  now have much more happiness in my life when I don’t have to calculate so much any longer. The constant pressure is now kind of gone and I feel like I can relax more. If I wouldn´t made this decision now - I would probably spend the whole comming year figure out how I could fix the Physics B & Math E courses. But now, I know I´ll have an easier year - even though I´m not qualified to a lot of natural sience programs at the Universitys. BUT that’s really OK for the moment. I mean, maybe I don’t even need them after all if I´ll do something else in the future sooo... therefore it’s better for me to do it this way and THEN IF I need them courses - I can study them up. Now it’s all practically set up and done because I´ll optimize my grades through haveing an easier year now so I´ll have better chanses to get the competence to study at the university later. If I chose to study Physic B, I´ll get one year "off" and work/fixing a driving license/travel. 

That’s the best way of doing it for me now. I’m pleased with myself for makeing my first real bigdeal mature conclusion about my future - and it can’t be the wrong decision because I´ve thought about it deeply for the last months/intensive few weekss so I couldn’t wait and think any longer about continue with Physic B or not because it would be a disaster if would get bad grades in the course which I can’t afford to risk. But I think I can allow myself one sabbatical if I chose to study natural sience at the university. Elsewhere, I´ll just seek for some other education which not require Physic B. I just wanted to be on the safe side for now and not suffer by tortureing myself with all that hard mathematical counting I HATE bacause I´ll never get an MVG / topgrade in it. Now I´ll enjoy my last year at highschool and feel good about myself, beautifully.

P.S. Today I tried my Student-hat. It was such a wonderful feeling. D.S

NOW I`M ON THE RIGHT WAY! Student 2008, here I come!

//A happy "Mysticá"