GOOD MORNING LIFE!

Never gave in!
Never gave up!
I’m the only thing I’m afraid of!

And no matter what -
you’ll never take that from me, because
my reign is as far as your eyes can see.

They like: "oh god!
why do you go so hard? Look what she’s been through 
She deserves an applause"

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DEAR DESTINY,

GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT.

THE THINGS THAT I CANNOT CHANGE,

THE COURAGE TO CHANGE

THE THINGS THAT I CAN,

AND THE WISDOM TO UNDERSTAND

THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE TWO.

Suddenly my mind screamed: "I WANT MORE LIFE" - and I begun a hard duel battle against myself. Yesterday I hadn’t slept the WHOLE NIGHT - not even got to bed, because I had too much stuff to sort out, too many tears which had to vaporize from my chin to fitting music. But I still "made the day"! Started doing what I supposed to: going to school, cleaned up home, wrote a test, helped my family, called friends, run errands etc. How could I get so strong when I was weak mentally, physically & emotionally? It wasn’t a choice. I forced myself to do the right things.

Somehow, I found the strength in the weakness. I turned my fear into courage to fight for myself, and the future. I had to put myself out from my comfortable shell into the danger zone where I dared to face the fear.

You see, it’s not an easy thing to do when you feel extremely worn and torn apart. The devil’s body in me screams: give up but the angel’s mind: try! Which ones do you think I listened to before and after?

I fly started; changed my patterns: letting the destructive bad habits go, the hard but in the end good-ones in, to expand. And this - Straight away!

I’m doing it for my family and friends, because if I’m not then I’ll lay in bed 24/7, isolated, until I’d faced death. And I RESIST to cause that pain to them because I know how it hurts, I’ve experienced it a long time now...

Depression is such a grave "disease". I have it under my skin, but it’s not showing on the surface. Only when you look straight into my eyes you can see a damaged soul. But there is hope. I’ll fight for my right and get stronger out of these "bad things" which have happened to me.

Seems like streetlights glowing, happened to be just like moments passing, in front of me so I hopped in, the cab and I paid my fair, see 
I know my, destination - but I’m just not there. Life’s just not fair.

I’M A CHAMPION!